My mom is my hero, she has always went above and beyond for her children. And now for her grandchildren. Me and my mom have a love relationship but also an antagonistic one. When I visit her home I always feel uneasy like there is tension in the air. I think because one misspoken word and I'll hurt her feelings. I'm not sure if the other children have that with her, though her and my older sister have had fights at levels me and mom have never approached. As I've gotten older and used to being alone I'm used to doing everything myself this is the biggest tension me and mom have. I won't let her help me at her house and she won't let me not let her help me at her house. So it leads to me saying something smart ass and feelings are hurt but not for long. There is also tension from my youth and things that went down but as I gotten older I have learned to forgive and try to forget. There are two names I never want to hear again and they get brought up every time I visit my mom and it makes it hard to forget. I know my mom is probably reading this and if she is I want a truce. I'm gonna let you be you, and I'll be me when I'm not around you. This may seem mean, it's not meant to be, it's meant to be kind. I'm a bitter, pissed off, human being who hates people in general and sometimes that is directed towards people I love. By the way, I love being bitter, mean and hateful.. not sure why but it gets me out of bed in the morning. So mom, i love you, you are my hero, I hope any misdeeds we have done to one another can be forgiven and I'll try to be more of a people person when I'm over cause we should be able to enjoy our visits without me being a dick head.
Everyone enjoy your Monday and give your mom's a Hug
Bubba
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